Worry..

I haven't slept much...I feel I have to stay awake
in case he will get worse..

My love is not any better..
And I still haven't done antything but to try to talk to him.
I wont call the doc against his will...I know him so well
and he would feel that as a betrayal.

So I wait and worry...
He himself has to decide when he has had enough pain...
I'll try not to interfere...it is hard, but I know he doesn't want me to

Maybe somebody will call us to hear how we are coping on
our own...I realy hope so..

I can't lie then..