Newyearsnight...

I lay still with a sleeping Sander in my arms
listening to the fireworks go of...
The muffled sounds and flickering light
from outside doesn't wake him.

We had time to talk...
And he plans to go through with it..
He says that even the slightest chance of getting
rid of the attacks is worth the risk...
I understand and agree.
If it was me who had a small chance of getting better
I would have taken that chance too...

But I cant help beeing scared.
Can I bear to "lose" him again?
I was stronger the last time than I am now..
I had all my strenght to offer to help pull him through
nowadays I am just very, very tired of it all....
The more or less constant pain is wearing me out.
Still I will do my best to carry him through this..
I will try and hold my focus on the outcome...
on him getting better...

So in this frozen newyearsnight I lay here
in the afterglow of the fireworks.
Trying not to cry as I gently kiss his sleeping face
I think I love him more than my own life!
The emotions running through my body at this moment
are so strong they almost scare me...
I burry my face in his blond hair...trying to stop time
To hold on to this moment.

Dear God...take care of him
Make him better for real this time...

And make me strong..


"You're the reason i still breath.
You're the light that lets me see..
When you fall in I will carry you back home.
You're the reason I still fight
I will tuck you in at night.
If you fall I will carry you back home..
You're not alone."

Stuedabakerbrown.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hu9lV9NdADo

Happy Newyear!!

Sander is home...

We are spending newyears eve all by our self...

I think that will be wonderful.

Happy new year to all you wonderful peolple out there...

You my make my life a lot better you know.

I love you...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lbF9qAd8JY

Wonderfull xmasdays...

We have had some wonderfull xmas days!
*Been celebrating with friends and family
*Been partying at J and H..
*Been giving each other a lot of "atention" (hehe)
*Been stuffing our selves with xmas foods...
*Been trying to adjust to the idea of owning this house...
We are still kind of "WOW" ...

This morning I hurt again ...and Sander had another attack and woke me in
the middle of the night...
So one can say everything is pretty much back to normal..
I hope he will be home tomorrow for New Year celebration..
And Monday 5th he will be back in hospital...
We have both been avoiding the issue during the hollydays.
But I guess we will have to talk it through...

Our little corner of the world has been at it's most xmasy this year
We oddly enough has only a little snow, but the cold has been very intensive
and everythin is covered in a white layer of frozt. It looks so beautilful

I hope all of you had a wonderfull time too

Love....

On the first day of christmas my granny gave to me...

I realy don't know were to begin...we had the most wonderfull christmas that anyone can imagin!!

For the first time Sander and I went to church with mom and granny...
I think even Sander found it beautiful...
especially afterwards when we came out into the cold, dark, graveyard
and hundreds of lights sparkled in the cold..
We had been to my babybrothers grave before we went inside
with a mossheart and a candle for his little lantern.
And in the frozen, dark....man, the lights were breathtaking!!
And I couldnt keep my tears from rolling.
Sander kissed them away...
but I could see his eyes were shiny too...

Then we went home to Stephan,Rein, Iver and his brother Gard
for xmas dinner...
After that sander and me took a little nap...
before we went uppstairs to join everybody in the livingroom for presents...

I got so many great things!!
Books and movies...a giftcard for bying clothes on the christmas sales...very handy:)
A new easypacked bag ...I realy needed that, my old one has made about 234 000 000 trips to hospital with me...and it shows!
Sander had gotten me an I-POD Yey!!!
...all I had was this cheap, shitty mp3...
He got me a silver bracelet and a cd book

I was a little puzzled when I noticied I had gotten no gift from granny...but I soon forgot..
And then she gave me an envelope...
I sort of ripped it open thinking it was money...but a letter fell out...
and it said something like this(in short):

Dear Ravn and Sander.

I give you this house...
This is my gift to you... instead of you inhereting me when I am dead...
you get it now..
I have devided what i got from selling my house In Hamar
+the house I inhereted from my sister + the money your grandpa left me
between you, Sander, Rein and Siri...

With the money becoming yours I bought this house from your mom...so that u two can have a safe and nice place to live and not having to move far away from the hospital.
Besides I do hope I can keep my room!!!

I mean...WOW....WOWWWWW!!!

We got speachless....
Sander was all pale and I just started to cry...
He strated to try and comfort me,
but then his tears starting to come to and it made him run downstairs..

I got up to follow him...but Granny sat me down again...
-I'll go, she said...and went after him..
I looked at my brother...he was compleatly taken aback!!
Looking like he had seen a ghost or something.
And mom, Stephan and Iver laughing and obveously beeing in on this!

I mean WOWWWWWWWWWWWWW...

I didn't know anything like this could happen for real !!!
And certainly not to me!!

I went downstairs a little later...
finding Sander laying on our bed with his head in
grannys lap...his eyes closed...
but there was sign of tears...and her stroking his hair softly.

I sat down beside her and kissed her cheek...
-I realy don't know what to say...I told her..
-You...you didn't have too U know...
She smiled...
-Oh, ravn...I know that...but I want to give it to you when i am still around..
and I could think of no better use for the money than buying u the house.

Sander opened his eyes and looked at us...
-But why me too? He asked with a shiver in his voice..
Granny smiled at him...
-Because my love...I see u as just as much my grandchild
as I do the other three..I love you just as much..

Sanders eyes flooded again...and he wispered....
-Thank you so very,very much...
and she leaned down and kissed his forhead..

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We haven't realy gotten used to the idea of owning this house yet!
I am just so thrilled that we doesn't have to travel all the way from aunty Annas house to the hospital!! And I sence a big relive in Sander too...
I think he only pretended that he wanted to move just to make me feel better about it!!
But he was probebly scared shitles of the idea of getting an attack out there in nowhere-land...
No we can relax....oboy!!!

I mean WOW....
WOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ravns christmas calendar christmaseve...

I am awake early as usual...and the house is all quiet..

I am feeling better today...

Today i give u Viktor Rydbergs marvelous poem "Tomten"

or Nissen as we call him in Norway...I wish u could have read it

in sweedsih...with the rhymes and all ...

but i found a translation along with Harald Wibergs

magical drawings of scandinavian xmas a century ago...

So with this I end my christmas calender 2008

God Jul to you all...I love you..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnKtAbNqElU

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=832EH7HE1bw&feature=related

Ravns christmascalendar..Little christmaseve...

It's still dark outside...
I have just gotten my morningshot of morph.

It's wonderful to feel the pain slinking away...
Sander has just fallen asleep again...after holding
and comforting me for an hour ..
This time too the pain has been severe...
I realy hope it is gonna disapear tonight.

Today is little-christmaseve...my favorite day of the year
But I am sad that I wont be partisipating in
the buissy life around the house..
I haven't even giftwrapped my presants!
Iver has helped me! I have just written on the cards.
Thanks to Iver and Granny i got my xmas-shopping done..

For Iver a book ...for Sander a set with sweatpants and a hooded sweater
it's xmas red...and he looks soo cute in red!
And a dvdbox I know he is going to love...
pluss a silver thumbring with vikingpattern..

A teddybear for Milla...and all the others get the goat thing!
I guess all our friends will come around today for a drink of Gløgg
and exchange of gifts...Rein will come too..
I hope I can manage to be out of bed in the periodes my morph is working
I am tired of beeing in bed...and I need to try to eat something(Yes Dan, I will try)

But for now...
I just want to sleep with Sander in my arms

Love..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NrAwK9juhhY

Ravns christmas calendar 22. december...

A rather drugged blogg...
A Norwegian xmas song for u...

"the angels are singing
fo peace on earth
the earth was not alone in the dark
couse a star is shining in the night..."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A0eEtLceMAU&feature=related

Notice the beautiful Norwegian Stav-churches in the video...

Monday as usual...

Just because it's christmas doesn't mean I am of the hook ...
I had to go to hospital to drain today as any other monday..
but next Monday they are closed for outpasients....yey!

Sander is feeling better! Thats grate! I am so glad he is!
We seem to have spent most of the sunday making love
Maybe that's why my draining was very dry sort of
this morning...lol

I can't write anymore right now...it hurts like
bloody hell...

Blæææ!

Ravns christmas calender...21. December..

The fourth sunday is here..

And I give u a song from a Norwegian childrens tv show...

And I'll even try to translate...

Light a candel

One candel's gonna burn

for this little earth

The shiny heaven-star

where u and I live

May we all share the hope

that someting wonderfull will happen

May heaven and earth meet

I light one candel for hope..

Light a candel

two lights are going to shine..

For love and faith..

For the people who care about others

And the people who build bridges

May priseners grant their freedom

and refuges a home

Light a candel for the ones that cry,

and the ones that comfort them.

Light a candle..

Three light are going to flame...

For the people who has to fight

for justice and freedom

they need our help..

May no one lose their curage

before all people are as one

Light a candle for the ones who fight

for freedom and human rights

Light a candle

All four of them glows for him

who loves everything alive

every lion ...every lamb

Light a candle for the heavenly king

that the sheperds saw

Now heaven and earth can meet

in the littel baby in the crib..

Love ....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qNzt9UGNNWs

Sleepless in Oslo...

Sander and me have spent the entire day in bed...
Sleeping ...cuddeling...holding each other ...

I have tried to ask him if he is afraid of the operation...but he says he wont talk about it
So I rest my case...I worry about him...and he worrys about me, even though my fever is down now..and I guess I am let of the hook for this time..
The others have been to see aunty Anna...even Iver and Ola..

Lasse phoned this afternoon...Arn and him is gonna spend xmas with Arns twinbrother and his family...Arn is having a good period now...I realy hope it will last for a while now..
he so deserves it!

It's almost one a.m here...Sander is asleep...
I hurt ...until my painkillers kick in I am unable to rest...

We could'nt keep of each other today either...maybe that's why... Making love is so important to us ...because that is the one thing that can make the pain a little weaker..
The endorfins work as painkillers...
besides it drains ...
besides it's wonderfull...

But sometimes it hurts as hell too....

But I cant let bee...I have the sexdrive of a tenage-rabbit!
I wonder when that is gonna stop! He can give me a boner just by looking at me!!
That's kind of embaressing!! And Sander loves to tease me!
Like caling me upp and start to talk dirty to me when I am out shopping...or on the bus...
And I can't have a boner for very long before I hurt...so the result is i have to find someplace
to jack of....and he knows it!!

Even Murmel teased me...that awful year with Sander in psyk. Murmel used to sms me and make me horny as hell. Sander and me had sex like once of twice that year...
Due to his mediction he had a very hard time cumming...
And my sexlife mostly came down to cy-sex with Murmel...I kind of like cy-sex...
And I even miss him in that way from time to time....sweet Murmel...

And I am scared...What if Sanders surgery goes bad? What if he ends up in psyk. again?
Will I cope? Can I be without him once more? I don't know. I haven't the strenght I had the last time. I just feel scared.....


(If u don't know who Murmel is read my blog oktober 18th)

Ravns christmas calendar 20. December...

Stopping By Woods On A Snowy Evening

Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep
,And miles to go before I sleep.


Robert Frost...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USrCmAnH9vo

Ravns christmas calendar 19. December...

We have stayed in bed all day...just holding each other..
He is so tired...
and I bet he is scared shitless of the surgery that awaits...
but he wont show...

I wish he would cry...I think it would do him good.
I wish he would open up to me...show his weakness..
dear to be afraid...
I wish...

It's cold outside tonight..but warm and cosy down here in our room..
He sleeps peacefully next to me...golden hair all over the pillow.

We wanted each other so much...
even though it hurts a bit to make love for both of us right now.
So no penetrating...just sweet,sweet kissing
and stroking and warm, soft
hands mouths and lips...slow and gentle...

God! I needed it so much!
To feel him melt and shiver in my arms...
I don't need no xmasgifts...
just his beautiful body next to mine..
Sweet angel-boy...



Traditionell Norwegian xmas song..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g0CCRJG4mJU&feature=related


"The ligh are shining from thousands of candles tonight..
Childrens hands are holding them up towards the sky....
To celebrate baby jesus...

Morning..

I have still trouble sleeping...
But today Sander is coming home...

There is still no sign of a serious infection...thank God!
But the fever is holding on...and I feel shitty..
Just want to bury my face in Sanders hair and sleeeeeeep

Ravns christmas calendar 18.December...

Still don't know what to write.
I feel like shit...Espen is watching me like 4 times a day.
I am pumped ful of antibiotics and morph...but I have no swelling
and that's good...

Thank u for leaving coments...I love when u do...or else I feel so lonely when
nobody is out there in this big world...U people are my life sort of...u know
In cyber nobody cares if I am laying in my bed..or that my life consists of hospital,
pain and medication..

So thank u for the coments...they realy matters to me...

love...

This one is for u..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FEwEQi8OpLE&feature=related

Blæææææææ....

I've been sleeping all night...
I am still tired and feverish and kind of scared that i might have to go
to hospital again...

I realy cant think of anything to write...and the hell with it!!
Almost nobody reads my shit anymore...

I don't blame them

fuck...

I am running a temprature...fuck

Update...

I haven't slept much..
I worry abut Sander, and I hurt.
Besides it's christmas soon and I havent done any shopping..
Guess I'll have to get someone to shop for me.
Rein has been taking care of the presents to Dads family from us...
And Sander has fixed the goat thing for everybody...but I need to get something for him,
and for Iver...and for Milla too...don't think she will apriciate a giveaway goat!

Granny is bussy making the traditionell stuff to eat at xmas...sylte, diffrent kinds of sild, beefrolls, homemade sossage, we eat that with pork ribs on xmas eve.
Iver is helping her, but I'm good for nothing these days...I am realy sick and tired of myself.
And it is raining...gaaaaaahh!! I hate that!!

We thought Sander would come home today...but now they say friday..fuck
I miss him...
But they will run som more tests...and when I spoke to him last night on the phone
I could tell he was in pain and almost crying...damn, and I couldnt be there...
and I doubth that anyone will let me go there today...can hardly walk
so my pain is a little to obvious..

I don't have much xmas spirit at the moment...wish I could sleep until spring...
wish I could escape the pain
And I need to be strong for Sander now...if he is going through another surgery.
He needs me to be there for him...

And i haven't any strenght left...fuck
So that's all i want for xmas this year...

Strenght...

Ravns christmas calendar 16. December...

I am sorry...my head is full of cotton or something.
I realy can't think of anything to write about..
I have felt lousy all day...and by now it should have been over...
but it aint...I still hurt

Fuckk

Update...

Sander is going home on wednsday...
And then in Janury he wil go back in and they will run tests,
and decide wether to operate or not...
He is ok, but realy tired...

I feel my usuall mondayshitpain...
Poor Iver did babysit me through puking and fainting..
Even though I realy tried to pull myself together...its kind of hard
to puke or pass out gracefully..

Poor Iver...

Ravns christmas calendar 14. december...

The most beautiful christmas song ever...

in its most beautiful version by the late Sweedish tenor Jussi Björling

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The Swedish tenor Jussi Björling (1911-1960) was born in Stora Tuna in the district of Dalarna.

As a boy he toured and recorded with the family quartet, in addition to visiting the United States (1916-26).

His adult teachers were his father David, John Forsell (1928-30) and the Scottish tenor Joseph Hislop.

He was a member of the Royal Opera in Stockholm from 1930, making his début in the small rôle of the Lamplighter in Puccini’s Manon Lescaut.

His‘official’ first appearance was as Don Ottavio in Mozart’s Don Giovanni later that season. Two years later he began his international career in Germany, followed by Vienna (1936), Chicago (1937), the Metropolitan Opera in New York (1938) and Covent Garden the following year.

He continued to appear regularly in New York, except in the war years, until 1959.

Björling was regarded as the foremost Italiansounding tenor of his day in the spinto rôles of Puccini and Verdi, and he also excelled in French opera.

His work was highly respected for its high artistic qualities, even if his acting ability was somewhat stilted and stiff.

He recorded extensively from the mid-1930s until his early death in 1960. His poor health in later years was caused by heart problems.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9nrDfqoYzNo

Worry...

I have trouble sleeping...
My bed is very empty with Sander away in hospital.
Besides I worry...

It seems something got fucked up with the blow he took to his nuts sometime ago.
The attacks has clearly speeded up again...and now they are talking of maybe...
just MAYBE he will need another surgery to his spine...
Even though they said the last time that they didn't dear to go any further.

So I guess it will be the same prosedure as the last time....where he stayed in hospital for a long time while they tried to prowoke and deteckt the exact locations of the fucked up nerves.
We will know more on monday.

Ravns christmas calendar 13. December...

Santa Lucia in Sweden

On the 13th of December a statue of Santa Lucia will be carried around the city of Syracusa. Santa Lucia is the patron of Syracusa. Why Santa Lucia is celebrated in Sweden? Santa Lucia was murdered long time ago, during the pre-Christian era when Diocletianus led the Roman Empire. He hated Christians and that time being a Christian in the Roman Empire was forbidden.
Lucia was rich and beautiful. She was also engaged to a young man. But both herself and her mother were secretly Christians. When her mother got ill, they went to a Santa Augustas grave for prayers. Santa Augusta appeared, telling both women that her mother should be cured from her disease. Lucia then promised to give away all her money to thank to God. Her boyfriend could not accept this. He betrayed her and the city-guard in Syracusa came to arrest her. This was on 13th of December. Nobody in city-guard could however kill her. But her boyfriend did it with a sward through her neck. Since Lucia had put out her eyes before she was killed, and a lot of wonders occurred in connection of her death, she became a martyr and was later canonized. She is now the Saint for the blinds.
In the Middle Age Sweden belonged to the Roman Catholic Church and Santa Lucia had the 13th of December as her own day, but she wasn't especially well known by the people.
On the 13th of December there was a special day for "Lusse" celebrated since ages. Lusse was the name of the devil and on the longest night of the year - everyone was afraid of him. This day was also the last day before the Christmas fast. People then ate a lot and of course there was a lot of drinking. It was "Lusse-night".
Something new happened in the 1920-ies. A Swedish singer was on a holiday in Neaples. He saw all street- names, restaurants and hotels named after Lucia. He also heard a special fisherman' song and he now, thanks to the song, got an idea to make the Lucia- celebration more respectable. The song got a new text in Swedish- connected to Lucia. In 1928 a newspaper announced a competition "Who will be Santa Lucia of Sweden?" This was the starting point for a new annual celebration. Since then, every year we appoint "Sweden' Lucia".
Very early on 13th December on every school, hospital, work place, church, nursery, homes for the aged- everywhere she turns up. She comes, with candles in her hair - not alone - there are attendants of girls and boys. The girls are called - maiden, the boys - "stjärngossar". You will also find some "Santa Clauses" and "Ginger-Snaps boys" in her procession. All dressed in white- except for the Santa Clauses and the Ginger-Snaps boys. They sing Christmas- Carols and they serve us coffee, "Lussekatter" and hard Ginger-Snaps cakes. The cakes are formed as hearts. They will make us kind.
Why do we celebrate this day so much? This day is important. Perhaps since this day in the past was the shortest day of the year.
This Lutheran country has adopted Santa Lucia as its own special Saint, and the celebration is an interesting mix between Roman Catholic traditions and old Swedish Folklore.

And in Norway too...

But this year my "Sander Lucia" is in hospital....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VZsgFPpBMfA

Again /Ravns christmas calendar 12. December...

Sander had another attack last night...
Now we are realy worried...he is not suposed to get them so often anymore.
As usuall when it happens at night it was Ola that woke me up...he is the cleverest
dog ever! And as usuall I found him on the bathroomfloor...
It was realy horrible this time...for he didn't pass out...he usually does, but this time he did not
he was awake all the way to hospital ...desperate from pain.

It does something to me whatcing him go through this....it totaly wears me out mentally.
The desperation of not beeing able to help him is almost to much for me to bear..
I cry now as I write this...fuck....
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Then I come to think of another episode that happened to him about two years ago...

Sander and I had been at the hospital to vissit Arn...we were going to take the train home
and were walking through downtown Oslo on a crisp autumnday.

Then Sander suddenly stumbles...I grab him by the arm...His face has suddenly gone all white..
Shitt...I know only too well what is happening to him...it is an attack.

I grab him and drag him in to an open gate leading in to small back yard...there he colapses in a corner and starts to throw up...fuck.
I garb my phone...only to find the batteries are empty. Then I look for Sander but remembers that he said earlyer on that he had left it at home by mistake...damn..

A door opens at the far end of the yard and two women comes out..Looking verry buisnesslike in their aperance...They look with disgust at Sander laying on the ground..
One of them looks at me and says.-"You two...get the hell out of here. This is private property"
-"But can't you see he is sick" I try to explain.
-"Probebly drunk" One of them say to the other.
-"No he is not" I am desperate for them to belive me..
Sander choughs and pukes again...they look at him with grate dispice and disgust.

Then the door opens again and a tall elderly man comes out...dressed in a navy suit and a tie..
He looks kind of familiar...but I havent got the time to think about where I might have seen him before.
The women hurrys towards him yapping on how he must get us out of there. The man looks at me...then at Sander who lies on the ground with both hands burried between his leggs.

-" You two just go on ahead" he says to the women. -"I'll catch up with you"
He then kneels beside us on the ground. -"Wat's the matter with him"? He takes of his jacket and places under Saders head...with no regard what so ever that he will get dirt and puke all over it.
I tell him...I suddenly spill out everything! How sander has been the last years...how much I wish for him to be well and how scared I am. -"Well I think we should get him inside...he lifts Sander upp in his arms and carrys him inside the building. Sander has past out and dangles like raggdoll in his arms.

He leads on in to a big luxuriuos office...with leather sofas and a huge desk...He carefully placese Sander on one of the sofas. Sander moans and opens his eyes..-" I got to piss" he wispers.
I tell the man...ask him if he has anything Sander can use since it is impossible to get him to use the batroom now. The man looks around the room ...on a shelf is a colection of silver prices..won in some tournament it seems...-"There" He grabs a big silver vas...use this. Help him!
He hands it to me. -"But".... I try to object...
He smiles -" I always found it rather ugly...it's nice to se it come out handy"

I help Sander to piss while the man calls for an ambulance. Sander then pass out again and the man sees to it that he is in a comfortable position and can breath. His clothes looks messy from carying Sander...but it don't seem to bother him at all. He is only conserned with Sander.

At last the ambulance comes and Sanders placed in the back...I give the man my hand..
-"Thank you so much for helping us...he reach in his pocket and takes out a hundred dollar bill and a buisnesscard...-"Here.. take this. You might need some cabfair later on" He presses them in to my hand. "And call me! I want to hear how he is doing!"
I promise to do that...and then the abulance drives away with us..

When I get home that night I suddenly remembers that I had promised to call him...
I find the card in my coat and....holly shit!!!

Now I know why he looked familiar!! For the man was Olav Thon..
One of Norways richest men...and the owner of half of Oslo...wow

Who would have thought him to show such compasion...
Thank you so much Mr Thon...

We ow u....big time...

Ravns christmas calendar 11. December...

Today we are having the big bakeing day...

In Norway it is customary to make 7 sorts of christmas pastry and cookies.

So we are at it...or ..hmm

Sander and I took the oportunity of making love while granny and Iver went shopping for the ingrediences.

And now "bakerboy" is sort of fast asleep lol

We will make

Kransekake, pepperkaker, krumkaker,serinakaker,krydderkake, sandkaker og smultringer...mmmmmmm.

We wont be able to make it all to day though...so I guess we will bake tomorrow too...Then we use to make homemade toffy and marsipan...

Today is a cold and snowy day here ...very xmasy..

Tonight Rein and Ivers brother Gard is coming for dinner...to eat rakefisk...

It is a norwegian tradision..small throuts are put in a bucket with salt and put aside til it's hum....almost rotten...lol

Then you eat it with onion, sourcreem, lefse and almondpotatoes..yummy!!

With the fish you drink aquavita and beer...

I am a little better...Sander is ok...Iver is walking properly lol

For now...all is well

Love to u all....

Ravns christmas calendar 10. December...

Today is a big day in Oslo...the annual Nobel peace price award takes place...

This years prize goes to the Finn peace negotiater Marti Artisari...

A well earned ...if rather unbrave choise...

I want to give a tribute to a former prizewinner...a little lady with the sweetest face ever..

The Guatemalan winner of the Nobel Peace prize 1992 ....Rigoberta Menchu Tum..

Rigoberta Menchú Tum was born in 1959 to a poor Indian family in the highlands of Guatemala. Like many other countries in South and Central America, Guatemala has experienced great tension between the descendants of European immigrants and the native Indian population. The Menchú family experienced extreme hardship as a result of their Mayan background.

In the 1970s and 1980s, the repressive military dictatorship of Guatemala began a large-scale repression of Indian peoples. Before she was 21, Rigoberta's mother, father and brother had been brutally tortured and murdered by the Guatemalan army. Rigoberta confronted the oppression faced by her family and her peoples by actively protesting labor and human rights abuses. In 1981 she was forced to leave her country and seek exile in Mexico.

In exile she became an eloquent defender of the rights and values of indigenous peoples and other victims of government oppression. On several occasions, Rigoberta returned to her home country to plead the cause of the Indian peasants, but death threats forced her to return into exile. In 1983, Rigoberta's testimonial book I, Rigoberta Menchú, helped the plight of the indigenous people in Guatemala become global news.

After winning the Peace Prize, Rigoberta established the Rigoberta Menchú Tum Foundation, which promotes the rights of indigenous people around the world. Over the years, she has become widely known as a leading advocate of Indian rights and ethno-cultural reconciliation.

In 1998, she published Rigoberta: La Nieta de los Mayas, later translated into English and titled Crossing Borders. Rigoberta's work has earned her several international awards and honorary doctorates. In 1993, she was nominated by the United Nations as Goodwill Ambassador for the International Year of the Indigenous Peoples. She went on to serve as the official spokesperson for the United Nations International Decade of Indigenous Peoples from 1994-2003. She has held the position of Good Will Ambassador for the Peace Accords in Guatemala since 2004.

Rigoberta is also involved in the Mexican pharmaceutical industry as President of the company Salud para Todos ("Health for All"), which has the goal of offering generic medicines to indigenous people in Guatemala. After winning the Prize, she established the Rigoberta Menchú Tum Foundation which promotes the rights of indigenous people around the world. Since 2004 she has served as Good Will Ambassador for the Peace Accords in Guatemala. Today Rigoberta is widely known as a leading advocate of Indian rights and ethno-cultural reconciliation.

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Ravns christmas calendar 9. December...

I miss summer...
I miss the smell and the warmt...and the sun.

And I give you Edward Grieg....our national composer..
"morningmood" from Per Gynt suite...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GUKRBeG-sGQ&feature=related

Ravns christmas calendar 8. December...

Another monday gone by in the name of pain..
I am not in the writing mood..

Sander is in hospital after an attack this morning...
It was realy the first time Iver vitnessed it happen ...and it almost scared the shit out of him.
No wonder...it still scares me too...my poor baby.

Tonight I give you a sweedish christmassong...with Agneta from ABBA!!
Enjoy..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OSB8D82c3bE&feature=related

Ravns christmas calendar 7. December...

Aurora borealis....Northern lights outside of Tromsø town..
Breathtaking....



17 year old Norwegian singer Erlend Brattland does Joni Mitchell..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A5AAoL4p3fs

Ravns christmas calendar 6.December...

this is a photo from 2001





The pain is once again keeping me from sleeping..
it's five am. here and everybody else is ....
So I make todays blogentry while waiting for my PK's to kick in..


We have about 20 inch of snow right now...and it looks magick ..
And our little town has the prettiest christmas street in Norway





The pick abowe is almost 50 years old...but the decoration pretty much looks the same today
Don't you just love it! And this part of main steet has the same old houses still ...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-FbVVeqf_fU&feature=related

Ravns christmas calendar 5. December...

I have not posted much since I came home...I've been so fucking tired..
Dont have much drive to do anything...

Iver is installed in his own room now...happy and content it seems...it's nice for us to have a bit more privacy too..even if it was kind of nice to have him here in our room too..
I worry about xmas shopping and buying gifts for everyone...but then I came to think of that Sander and me decided to get a gift to the "church aid" on behalf of each member of our family...so there will be 4 familys out there somewhere in africa that will get a goat for xmas instead of us buying junk ...is'nt that a great idea?

Oh,, u cant read it...but u'll get the picture...
http://www.gaversomforandrerverden.no/home/gift.aspx?id=2&name=geit

Another xmas song for u....in sweedish this time..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7-CWdZ1zXD0

Ravns christmas calendar 4.December...

Today i give you 2 typical Norwegian folktunes...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dff7-Uhff8E

Ravns christmas calendar 3.December...

I am not much of a bible reader...

but there is one man that in my opinion gets way to little atention...

Marys boyfriend...Josef.

The "father" of Jesus...wasn't he the real hero?

Mary...(who he knew that he didn't sleep with)...came to him

and told him that she was pregnant.

And on top of that...the baby was Gods son !!!

And Josef...

well he did not say

"-That's the lamest exuse I have ever heard!

Hasta lavista,baby!"

No. he realy did belive her...

he stood by her side...like a rock...

silent and sure..through it all.

To me that is the biggest love ever...

Josefs love for Mary...

St. Josef of the earth...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bYQo4Rq3bPU&feature=related

Home...

At last I am home again...a bit tired..a bit hurting still, but home!
It feels great...

Ravns chritmas calendar 2. December...

Sometimes hidden tresures is found when you least expect them...

This is one of mine....

A sweet tune..

sung by a ....hmm.....frog!!

The rainbow connection.

Why are there so many songs about rainbows.

and whats on the other side?

Rainbows are visions, but only illusions,

and rainbows have nothing to hide...

So we've been told and some choose to belive it.

I know they're wrong...wait and see...

Someday we'll find it. The rainbow connection.

The lovers, the dreamers ......and me...

Who said that every wish will be heard and answered

when wished on the mornigstar ?

Somebody thought of that....and someone belived it.

Look what it's done so far..

Whats so amazing that keeps us stargazing ?

And what do we think we might see ?

Someday we'll find it. The rainbow connection.

The lovers, the dreamers..... and me...

All of us wonder if still we know that it's probably magic...

Have you been half asleep ? And have you heard voices ?

I've heard them calling my name...

Is this the sweet sound that calls the young sailors ?

The voice might be one and the same...

I've heard it to many times to ignore it...

It's something that I'm supposed to be...

Someday we'll find it. The rainbow connection.

The lovers,the dreamers....

and me.....

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" You may grind the souls in the selfsame mill,

You may bind them, heart and brow ;

But the poet will follow the rainbow still,

And his brother will follow the plow "

John Boyle O'Reilly.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=thEiXbovv98

Ravns christmas calendar 1. December...

The worlds AIDS day.

This year Ravn will make his annual christmas calendar even in english !!

Here he will post stuff that realy means somthing to him...

Since he is still in hospital. I get to do the firts entry!!

Sander.

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How can we contribute? I am sure each and everyone of you will make an effort today.

Either by giving donations or at least wear the ribbon..

There are still far to many who contages this horrid disease every day around the world.

Yes,there is medication, but most poor people cannot aford them.

Maybe your donation can save a life?

Think of it.

What better christmas gift can you get?

http://www.avert.org/worldaid.htm

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xGbnua2kSa8