Again..

Iver is doing fine...
Ravn is back in hospital..due to the draining once more..

Sander

Poor Iver..

Iver's got the svineflu!
Granny is realy worried about him now cause his fever is way to high.
Later on today the Doc will come to se him to decide if he need to
be in hospital.

Sander and I have gotten our flu-shots.
But the rest of the farm population has not....
So there's a risk more of them will get sick

So far his boyfriend seems ok...but only time will tell.

Poor,sweet Iver..

Life on the farm...

We have spent the weekend out on the farm.
The weather has been lousy, but we still had a good time.
Waking over the meadows with Ola ...and breathing the fresh country air.
We have stayed with Granny and Iver in the small house...the main house is full at the moment.
And the guest acomandations in the atick is not ready for use yet.
Besides on or two of the "bad boys" living there are real homophobic...so no need to
be in their face all the time.

Granny came and drove us out on the farm late on Friday. I think she worry
about me. Cause I am feeling down. And it was realy nice with a change
of invironment for a while. It was nice beeing with Iver and his sweet boyfriend too.
And of cause beeing with Mom and Stephan.

I am still in pain, but I think the change of invironment made me feel better.
Beeing around people and animals helps too...and makes me forget my own pain a bit.
I have slept like a log...and I have eaten Grannys wonderful cooking.
At least I am less depressed now....for the time beeing.
But I miss the farm already...

And I am NOT going in to drain tomorrow...lucky me!

Home

I am back home...
Tired as hell ,but happy to be here.

I have been in severe pain for sevral days.
And if somebody had given me a loaded gun by then
I would not have hesetated to use it.
I am not painless...but a bit better.
And it is good to be home in my own bed.

I feel more and more the strain from beeing in pain most of the time.
I am just so damned tired of everything...and nothing seemes fun
or cool anymore. I just want to sleep and be nobody...


"And when u arrive...the dead woman says
I will wait for u in the dizzy drive..
Behind the sea,the heaven and the wind..
And there both of us shall be
eternaly nobody"

Hospital

The draining this week went realy shitty.
And Ravn is back in hospital after living with
terrible pain for two days.

He is on the mend now and will probebly be home
Monday or Tuesday.

Sander