Hi..

I have survived this weeks drainig...I have been to hell and back.
But I am alive...just have to get some much needed rest.

Love ravn

Only 16...

I am so ashamed!!!
I think I will hide under my bed until spring is over!!!

I have been to se Sander in hospital..
(yes I gave him ur love both Dan and Butterfly)
And he sends his love back to u all.He is feeling a bit better and might come home tomorrow if the Docs ok it. Yey!!:D
But that is not what I am ashamed of...

I went to get a haircut after I had been to se Sander...a much needed one!
My hair was almost as long as Sanders!!!

My hairdresser is a realy sweet girl...and it was nice to see her again..
BUT...They have gotten a new shampooboy...
jeeeeeeeez, he was about 16-17 I guess...
and maybe the cutest/ handsomest thing I have ever seen!! Wow!
And to have that gorgeous thing so close to me.... I could smell him....his hands caressing my hair...my God!
I got so hard I almost came in my pants!!
Just like a fucking 16 year old!! Now that's embaressing!!! Thank God for those big "bib sort of aprones" they put around you! Even then I felt that his "not so inocent" big blue eyes saw right into my dirty little mind...and liked what they saw in there...God!

I could have had him...I know I could!
So sander, please do come home!!!! Before I do something realy stupid!!!

Gaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!

Sorry...

Thelma and Louise....

Thank you so much for answering! I was pleased to see i still have some friends out there. And I know Butterfly and Dan reads my blogg too.
Besides I talk to Dan every day on msn and Butterfly too... from time to time..
So speak up anyone who wants to chat on msn...I am usually bored and happy to do so!

As you might have guessed Sander is in hospital again.He went in on Friday and they realy can't do much but to ease his pain. I have spent the weekend by his bed whatching him sleep. Today I feel tired and depressed. I miss Sander and miss the company we had. The day is grim and grey and boring...I was planning to go to the gym..but I am to tired.I have spent most of the day in bed with my laptopp.
Flirting with some Sweedish guy that is realy hot looking! Followed by attacks of shame at how horny he makes me...followed by him jacking on cam...wow!
It is feeling like spring alright!! :)
I feel restless and edgy and horny...and I want something to happen! But I dont know what...Granny is coming later on to take me to see Sander. I hope he will stay awake at least so he will notice that we're there.

And maybe later on we will ride of into the sunset like Thelma and Louise...
Out into the unknown!!!
Hmm...
I guess she'll just drive me stright home...so much for adventure...:(

Love Ravn.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ylQdpv8Ua1M&feature=related

Is there anybody out there?

Is anybody reading my blog?
Or do I bore u to death.
I have the impression it is only "Fire" who reads it...
A lot of bloggers I have known has stopped blogging.
I miss the old ones...

So...is there anybody out there?

Again...

Our guests has gone home...and we are alone again.
If one ever can feel alone with nurses around the house all the time...

Sander is hurting again...and hurting badly. I guess it is just a matter of time before he will have to go to hospital again.
But stubborn as he is he has refused so far.

I try to spend my "good week" doing something close to living...like go to the gym, shop for grocerys and do some work around the house. It's strangely satisfying to be usefull if only for a few days. All thoug I wish Sander would feel better too...

I miss Lasse and his crazy ,horny ,playfull company.
It realy did me (and him) good.

Life is to short to stop playing...life is to short to stop living. I miss my life...I think it once used to be worth living.

Love Ravn.

Solitude...

We've had a wonderful week...but now Monday is coming up
and I have to go in to drain. I don't wanna spoil everyones fun
so I send the boys of to the farm for a few days until I get back on my feat.
I have managed to talk Sander into going with them. I'll be safe here with the nurses and Trine to look after me. And I actually prefer beeing on my own
when I hurt like that...without an audience...

Nothing much to say realy....hopefully I'll be with you again on Thursday.

love Ravn.

Houseparty...

Everything went well...
my love is home and his beautiful heart on the mend.

He has to take it easy for a while, but he is gonna be all better!!

This week we have houseguests...Lasse and Arn came on Sunday. And will stay yet another week. It is so good to have them here...but poor Arn had to go in to hospitals for three days to do some tests. They turned out to be fine! So no tumors in sight for him!! :))

The hard bit of having Lasse around is that he turns me on so badly. I was so starved for sex now with Sander beeing out of order for some time...and Lasse was the same due to Arn that has had two painful weeks.
So we ended up having sex already in hospital on Tuesday....finding an empty mensroom while Arn slept.
And then again yesterday. Lasse spent the night in Sanders and mine bed...not sleeping very much...we gave sander the ultimate treatment..very slow and careful BJ's so that he wouldnt oveexite himself...
Then when he slept Lasse and I played until morning..( I cant help it...I am just so fucking horny:S)
I don't feel that I am doing something wrong either...as long as the four of us has a mutual agreement.It helps us survive both as couples and lovers I think.
It certainly helps me survive my own hornyness (embaressed)

Well...spring is in the air...life is quite good in this smal space in time..let's enjoy it!

Love Ravn