Memorys.

In the middle of the night I found myself  going here  to read .  Ravn felt so close to me tonight, I miss him so much it hurts. I've been Reading the whole blog  from the start to the end. I have cried a bit, but mostly I have smiled at Ravns way of seeing a light in the tunnel even at the darkest times. Reliving all the memorys writen  in here. Good and not so good. His voice shines through the pages, and in to my heart.

A cold summer has turned into fall here in Norway. Granny and me still live together. This year has been hard on my health, and for a moment I thought I was  going to bite the dust, but I did'nt, and I am glad. Life is short, and death is endless, I am to curious to die. I want to know what happens next ! 

I miss a lover, and I miss Ravn. I need someone in my life, but it is not easy
meeting someone when I am mostly in hospital.  I see Lasse and Peter from time to time. It is ok to have them to "play" with. But I long for a love of my own.

So I guess my only wish  to Santa this year is a lover. I promise I will be a good boy !


Sander.