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I am back home...
Tired as hell ,but happy to be here.

I have been in severe pain for sevral days.
And if somebody had given me a loaded gun by then
I would not have hesetated to use it.
I am not painless...but a bit better.
And it is good to be home in my own bed.

I feel more and more the strain from beeing in pain most of the time.
I am just so damned tired of everything...and nothing seemes fun
or cool anymore. I just want to sleep and be nobody...


"And when u arrive...the dead woman says
I will wait for u in the dizzy drive..
Behind the sea,the heaven and the wind..
And there both of us shall be
eternaly nobody"