Hotel Ravn and Sander...

After some wonderful days with Lasse and Arn...it is time for new guests.
Iver and Kris arrived last night.

While Lasse and Arn spent the time with Sander and me...
going in to town and to the nudybeach.
These two lovebirds will probebly keep to them selves
down in our old basementroom.
Thats ok...
I remember what it was like beeing that young and that horny!


With Lasse and Arns departure...the rain is back.
It doesn't matter..my butt is brown,
and I think I still got some sand in my hair from wonderful
summerdays at the nudybeach.
I cant remember the last time the four of us had
such a great time.
Usually one or two of us is not well.
This time Sander was a little under the weather,
but not so he could'nt enjoy the company.

The nurses are back, Trine is back...
life is back to normal exept for the two horndogs
downstairs that are trying to make up for sevral weeks apart
when Kristan was with his parents on vacation. :)

It is almost noon and we haven't seen any of them yet!
So now this landlord/hotelmannager will take his "bellboy"
out to lunch at Jekyl and Hyde...
Then the two of them can sleep the day away.
I guess they had a buissy night!

Love Ravn.

Sander in the morning.

I had to go here and write. Just to do something other than watch my love suffer.
The draining yesterday was harder than usual on Ravn. I almost had to carry him out to the taxi afterwards, and he spent the ride home crying helplessly in my lap.

Ravn sugested that Lasse and Arn went to the farm to vissit Granny for two-three days. I understand him. It is ok to be alone when you feel realy bad.

So it is him and me now. Like it used to be. Nurses having the week of, and Trine on summervacation. We have her mom next door as a back up. And Dr.Espen a phonecall away. So we are not compleatly left alone.

I read his last blog. It made me sad. Even though it is true. I have withdrawn.
It is easier that way when I hurt. But I promise both to him and you good people out there that I will struggle to be more outgoing. And I will finaly open up compleatly to him. I just need some time, and I need to be more or less free of fysical pain.
Or else I wont manage.

I love him so much. He is my whole life. I won't let him down.

As the morning comes I watch him sleep. He looks so beautiful and peaceful now, but in an hour or so the pain will be almost unbearable. And Dr. Espen will be here to give him another morphine-shot.

It is so hard to deal with a pain that is not my own. I am quite good at that. But when Ravn hurts like this it makes me feel totally helpless.
Not practically. I can deal with him puking and passing out,
but seeing him suffer and cry is pure torture. It hurts my soul,and that is the same kind of pain that I get dealing with my past....the pain that I can't handle.

But somehow, someway I have to. I promise.

Sander.

Wonderfull....

We have had a wonderfull weekend...or at least some of us have..
Sander is still tired and needs to rest a lot.
But Lasse, Arn and I have been to Oslo, enjoying Aker Brygge and TGIF
We have been to Jekyl too...and today I think we all have a slight hangover.
I am so happy for Arn, it is not often that he get to enjoy himself.
So lets hope this lasts for the rest of their stay.

For me the fun is over tomorrow. I have to go in to drain again...
can't say I am looking forward to it..but hey, it is clearly what keeps me on the right side of the dirt...so I'll manage...

As for Sander...he is tired of course...but also back to the silence he uses when things get a bit to much for him.He pretends to be more ok than he realy is now...and it makes me sad. I hope it is just a brave face he puts up in front of our guests...not a step back to old ways.

So I say goodbye for now...hopefully I am ok by Wendsday night...take care
out there ...and as Dan would say: "Keep the rubberside down"

Love Ravn.

Sander is home!

Sander is home at last! :)
Lasse is still here and we are expecting Arn to fly down tomorrow.
Then maybe we can have some kind of a summerhollyday together.
We wont be able to travell, but if the weather improves we can have a good time right here in our garden with most of the neighbours away.

Sander is happy to have Lasse here, he is our mutual lifesaver it seems.
But for diffrent reasons right now...

Well, todays weatherforecast says rain, and a lot of it too...
So we will just stay inside and watch some more "Pacific" on dvd..
Order in pizzas and have a lazy day.

Sander is still tired, so I guess it suits him just fine.
We have given the nurses two weeks of too, with Lasse here and Arn coming, we will manage on our own.That will feel like a sort of vacation too...


Here is Norwegian singer/songwriter Sussanne Sundfør for you...she is the best!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OgAMh7s-q_k

A good week...

It is so nice to have Lasse here...we both needed it badly.
And Sander is happy too...and feeling better day by day now it seems.
Hopefully he will come home at the end of this week...and Arn will come here too to join us and make it a houseparty:D

We have done little else than visit Sander in hospital and fuck(pardon my french) this week. So I should be well drained even before my drainig today.
Poor Lasse will have boring days until I recover from the draining...but I think he might need some rest too...hehe..

So goodbye for now...I am going to hospital..

Love Ravn..

Tomorrow...

Yesterday I had a long talk on the phone with Lasse..spilling my guts and even some tears I think. The result of that is that he is coming to stay for awhile.
With Arn beeing in a moody state due to pain and medication, Lasse needs to get away for awhile. Besides I guess he is just as horny as me...*blush*

God! I need him real bad!!

Chip and Dale...

Sander is still in hospital...So apart from my draining on Monday, this week has been somewhat like last week.

Oh, I forgot. I have visitors staying in our old basementroom...Chip and Dale...or Iver and boyfriend Kris.I was not very good company the first few days, but I dont think they noticed...beeing engaged in each other most of the time.
It went to the point were Kris needed a break from the lovemaking...and they needed a bit guiding in the art of gay-intercourse...haha
Then Iver got an urinary trackt infection so that pretty much ended it.

They have gone back home with granny this afternoon and the house feels empty without them. Yet I am so tired that I hardly notice whats going on around me.
Sander says he feels a tiny bit better...so I realy hope it wont be long now before he can come home.

As for the two lovebirds...I think they will be back later in July, when Sander is home again.

Take care all u good people out there...I hope u have a nice summer!