Iver..

I am so fucking pissed!!!
Yes, they drained Iver today...
in spite of my advice of not to!
Bastards !

I find this kind of pain much to heavy for a 15 year old
to deal with... if he doesn't absolutly have to!
I mean a 15 year old is in the middle of puberty, and
his nuts hurt even without draining !
It is pure torture to let him go trough this hell...

As a result I have been sitting with a crying, shivering,
pukeing Iver... resting his head in my lap all day.
Trying to calm him and assure him that the pain will go away...
Not much help in that...because he have seen me on my Mondays..

Granma and me have decided that we will refuse
them to do this to him anymore...
not unless they have prove of him having a resitant klamydiainfection!!

I guess I dropped the bomb...

Well the hell with it...Iver wants me to tell u anyway..
He was not kicked in the nuts...when we first met him
he had a bad case of klamydia...

In short... he did not have a good normal childhood...
but grew up with relegious abusing parents...
that thretened and hit him..
When his brother fled the nest he had no one ...
So he started looking for love and afection elsewhere...
and then came in touch with the gay pickup sights on the internett.
That was two years ago......
He has since then been living more or less of grown men
buying his body for pleasure....
That kind of "love" is pretty much the only kind he knows..
(sorry there was no pretty way to tell u)


But we are changing that...
showing him love and afection the way u should show a child.
The way he realy needs to be loved..
He is the sweetest of boys...even if he( as granny says)
is a wierd mix of a skilled 40 year old casanova and a 4 year old bratt....
and we have grown to love him so very, very much.

But he does not need this bloody pain..... he is just a kid!
Damned it!!

And I will fight them !!!

By God I will !!!

Winter wonderland...

I keep waking up early.
Partly because I am in pain
and parly because the day starts early in hospital.
And I have not adjusted yet..

I miss Sander so much ...but I have Iver for company
and that helps a great deal since I can*t do much besides
laying in my bed yet. Only stupid problem right now
is that Iver likes to sleep in Sanders bed. I like it too
It is nice to have company...
It' just that at this stage of beeing without Sander
I tend to "do stuff" in my sleep...
And I might mistake him for Sander.And make a fool of myself..
So yesterday I had to tell him that. Far better to be honest
I think , even if it is embaressing.

Iver has said he wants me to tell u his storry...and I will as soon
as my brain is back ...it's kind of drugged still.

I spoke to Sander last night on the phone...he was ok
His nerves are fucking with him though...like yesterday he had
had a hardon for over 4 hours...for no reason at all.
And when he acsedenly tuched it ...it exploded like a fountain
lol... He has now renamed it "Old Faithfull"
It is a bit scary that he doesn't feel much down there...
but the doctors keep assuring him that everything
will be back to normal...it will just takesome time for his nerveends
to settle again after the surgery.

Oh, we have so much snow!! Even for Norway!
We have nearly snowed in!
Iver,Trine,Simon ,Milla and Ola had a great time yesterday
playing in it. It is so deep by now than Ola almost disapears in it :D
We have a hill just down the road...with a lighted patch for tobogans
and the slope is realy steep too so it is cool to play there.

I spent most of yesterday upstairs on the sofa...I can't sitt..and I can't walk much
So there is little else to do than watching TV or read.
Tomorrow both me and Iver is going to hospital for checkups..
And Iver might face his very first draining...
Oh, but i hope he doesn't have to....
I don't wish that pain on him...

Have a wonderfull Sunday all...

Love...

Home...

Yes I am !!!
A bit...or very realy...tired, but alive...
I wanted to go with Sander to rehab....but no can do :(
That sucks...but I can't do much about it .

They think he is going to be fine but as it is right now
he has no use of his legs and he cant pee but has to use a catheter..
It sounds worse than it is realy...
The doctors says he will be able to ...but they don't know how
long it will take. And they say the operasjon was a sucsess...
so I am not going to panic about that.

I see Iver has kept you posted. :)
Thank you for all your prayers and good thoughts

Love u all!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WElvEZj0Ltw

Update wednsday afternoon.

I have waited for Ravns friend Dan, to come on MSN, but he did not show today.
So I will tell him here what I am going to do.
I have made "Bananabread" this morning from ur recepie, and soon
I am gonna take it to Ravn and Sander with courtesy from u !
I even bought creamcheese to go with it :D

Iver :D

update Tuesdaynight.

They are both better, and they have both been awake :)
Sander is out of intesive care and they will probebly take him to a rehab unit on friday.
And if Ravns temprature is stabil he will come home on friday too.

Sorry, Butterfly. It was not Ravn on MSN only me and I was not even in or I had talked to u!

Iver.

Update Sunday night.

We were at the hospital all day yesterday. With both of them in bad shape
nobody wanted to go home. Sanders condition became more and more unstabile
during the day, and the doctors refused to move Ravn in with him until Granny got realy, realy mad at them and told them she would go out to the papers complaining if they didn't.

So his bed were placed beside Sander, and Ravn took his hand and held it thightly.
It did not take very long before Sander started to improve on his vital signs.
He somehow must have known Ravn was with him even though he was not councius and Ravn was to sick to speak.
This morning they took Sander of the respirator, and he now breathes on his own. Both of them has slept quietly all day today, so we did not see them today. Just let them rest.
Ravns teprature is still a bit high, but he is better.

Thank u all for beeing kind
Iver.

Update friday afternoon.

Sanders condition has changed for the worse. And he is now on a respirator.
Then Ravns fever came back. Ravns dad has come.
Everyone is scared.

Iver.