Nightwatcher...

Late night, and I can't sleep...

I am so tired, but the pain keeps me awake...Sander is asleep. He has been better for for a couple of weeks now. I am so pleased for him! He deserves to breath for awhile. To live a little. Sometimes I think he would be better off without me, but I know deep down that it is not true. He loves me..just as much as I love him.
He is my pride and joy, love and life. He is the reason I stay on this side of the dirt!

I have a full time night nurse this days. With Trine out on maternety leave I need someone to adminster my medication. And another dose of painrelive is still an hour away. Then if am lucky I will get a few hours sleep before hell brakes loose again.

And I worry about Dan. I havent seen him on msn for days now! And I know he cant coment in here...so Dan if u read this....please com on msn and tell me you are fine!

And sweet Firethorne..you always cheers me up. Thank u so much,...thanks to all who reads here. I pray that u will get a good nights sleep.

Love Ravn.

Hey..

I think I most have the most boring blog in the world.

I have nothing fun to share with you this time either...I struggel with constant pain of the most presisting kind..the kind one can't pretend is'nt there even for five minutes. It wears me out, and it wears my suroundings out as well.

I do nothing but lay on my bed or on the couch upstairs... I feel sorry for my self and I guess I am a real pain in the ass. Poor Sander. He is realy trying his best.
They don't even drain me now. Guess they are afraid of killing me or something.
Maybe just as well. Do it fast instead of this drawn out suffering...
It's realy so good for nothing...

Sorry, I should have made some joke, or coments to let u know I keep my spirits up, but my spirit is kind of dead...as I am..

Thats life...thats me

Ravn

just to keep you posted.

Ravn is in and out of hospital, mostly inn.
Right now he is home on weekend leave. Things are not looking grate, and he is growing weak and is looking frail.
There is not much to do exept from trying to ease his pain. There are no inflamations at the moment but the pain has gotten chronic, an wears him out totally.
He says to give you his love!

Sander

Still alive...

Hi, I am home at last. Still alive...at least I think I am. It does'nt feel like it yet. Sander has been in and out of hospital too, but at the time beeing we are both home and can bee with each other again.

This was the closest ever...It is going to take a long time before I am fully recoverd.So have patience with me please.

Thanks for all mails and sms.

Love Ravn

Update 2

Theres no change in Ravns condition. :(

Sander.

Update.

Hey, it's Sander.
I am home again from hospital and feeling a bit better.

Ravn is still there, still fighting the inflamation, he is still kept asleep in intensive care ward.

Sander.

Hospital.

Both Sander and Ravn are in hospital with inflamations.Ravn wanted me to tell you.

L.