Is there anybody out there?

Is anybody reading my blog?
Or do I bore u to death.
I have the impression it is only "Fire" who reads it...
A lot of bloggers I have known has stopped blogging.
I miss the old ones...

So...is there anybody out there?

Again...

Our guests has gone home...and we are alone again.
If one ever can feel alone with nurses around the house all the time...

Sander is hurting again...and hurting badly. I guess it is just a matter of time before he will have to go to hospital again.
But stubborn as he is he has refused so far.

I try to spend my "good week" doing something close to living...like go to the gym, shop for grocerys and do some work around the house. It's strangely satisfying to be usefull if only for a few days. All thoug I wish Sander would feel better too...

I miss Lasse and his crazy ,horny ,playfull company.
It realy did me (and him) good.

Life is to short to stop playing...life is to short to stop living. I miss my life...I think it once used to be worth living.

Love Ravn.

Solitude...

We've had a wonderful week...but now Monday is coming up
and I have to go in to drain. I don't wanna spoil everyones fun
so I send the boys of to the farm for a few days until I get back on my feat.
I have managed to talk Sander into going with them. I'll be safe here with the nurses and Trine to look after me. And I actually prefer beeing on my own
when I hurt like that...without an audience...

Nothing much to say realy....hopefully I'll be with you again on Thursday.

love Ravn.

Houseparty...

Everything went well...
my love is home and his beautiful heart on the mend.

He has to take it easy for a while, but he is gonna be all better!!

This week we have houseguests...Lasse and Arn came on Sunday. And will stay yet another week. It is so good to have them here...but poor Arn had to go in to hospitals for three days to do some tests. They turned out to be fine! So no tumors in sight for him!! :))

The hard bit of having Lasse around is that he turns me on so badly. I was so starved for sex now with Sander beeing out of order for some time...and Lasse was the same due to Arn that has had two painful weeks.
So we ended up having sex already in hospital on Tuesday....finding an empty mensroom while Arn slept.
And then again yesterday. Lasse spent the night in Sanders and mine bed...not sleeping very much...we gave sander the ultimate treatment..very slow and careful BJ's so that he wouldnt oveexite himself...
Then when he slept Lasse and I played until morning..( I cant help it...I am just so fucking horny:S)
I don't feel that I am doing something wrong either...as long as the four of us has a mutual agreement.It helps us survive both as couples and lovers I think.
It certainly helps me survive my own hornyness (embaressed)

Well...spring is in the air...life is quite good in this smal space in time..let's enjoy it!

Love Ravn

Birthdayheart...

Yesterdays birthdayboy had an attack the night before...
and in hospital later on they found out monitoring him..that something was not right with his heart.

So this morning while preforming an arterioskopi they found one comepletly blocked arterie in his heart. It has now been opened and they have put two stents inside it to keep it open. He is tired, but he is gonna be ok!! I have decided that!!!

I think he has had more than his share of problems by now...my poor sweet love:(

In and out and....

In and out and round and round...

Sander had an attack again...and while in hospital he had
another one this morning.This does not look good.
I was looking forward to spend a drainfree week with him..

No I guess he'll have to stay in hospital...Fuck..
Why do life always have to suck!

Alive and kicking..

Here I am...alive and kikcing...
Well, not exactly...but I made it. I am dead tired and probebly going to spend most of today on the sofa in the livingroom, but I focus on the ten days ahead without draining. That makes me feel sort of rich :)

Last week I even went to the gym twice! I can't remeber the last time that happened.
My only wish right now is that Sander will have some "timeout" from his pain too...
His birthday is coming up in a couple of weeks. And our friends Lasse and Arn are coming to stay for a week. How wonderful it would be if we all could have a good time and enjoy beeing together.

He is gonna turn 25! Wow! I guess I must stop to call him a boy now...(yes I know Dan, I should have stopped that a looong time ago)It is just hard to use the word man..it is so "daddyish" ...

It is snowing today, but the cold is not to bad...we have about 70cm (30inc) of snow now...and I cant remember that much since I was little. It is beautfull but I long for spring...but it seems a long, long way of..

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