LIve from hospital...

Hi! This is me live from hospital!
I am still in here. My pain is little less severe due to the morphinepump. But I still don't feel great. I had a pretty high fever when I got in Monday, but they have managed to bring it down now.

So heres the thing: They want me to have surgery to my prostate, and posibly my nuts as well. I refuse! I can't se how messing with my damaged prostate can cause anything but more pain and a possible impotence. Hell, I don't want to be deprived of my boner! So as long as they can't garantie that surgery will help. I wont let them. No way. The possibility of spreading inflamation from my chronic inflamed prostate to the rest of my body is also significant. That would probebly kill me. So no, I wont!

I miss Sander and I miss home. He is not feeling good. So the nurses back home wont alow him to come and se me. Lasse has been here every day. Iver and Chris were here yesterday. They are going back to the farm tomorrow. Maybe we will have them again later this summer. With me and partly Sander in bad shape they have not had much fun this week.

The urologists are discussing the whole draining thing. Is there another way? Can they be less brutal? They don't know it seems. So I guess they are still going to torture me every fourtnight.

It is boring to be here bedridden, but I am in to much pain to realy care. I sleep alot and dream wiered dreams.My drugged mind can't focus on reading. And I hope u will excuse me for writing even worse english than usual.

My main problem now is Trines wedding a little more than two weeks from now. I am suposed to be her "Maid? of honour" (what do you call me? Man of honour?)and that's impossible if I lay here..:(
I missed Millas birth cause of this fucking fragile body of mine. And i just wont let it screw up Trines wedding too! No way!! I am gonna be there for her even if they have to carry me!

Looks like I am gonig for bloodtests. Have a nice day all (or my one reader, Firethorne)

Love Ravn

Shitty week...

It has been sometime since I wrote. We have been ocupied out on the farm or out in the sun in our garden, but now it is raining.

My draining last week went real shitty and caused me to bleed. I still hurt from it big time, and is going back in to hospital tomorrow to se if if they can do something to ease my pain. As it is now it totally wears me out.
I am in a hellish mood to, and no fun to be around.Since the house is full I have to pul my act together, but today I begged Sander to take Lasse,Iver and Chris to the movies so that I could get a break.
It feelt good just to be with Tim the nurse and let out some frustrasion and a flood of tears.

Tonight I have a fever, fuck...I have not told anybody yet, but I know the signs. So if after tomorrow I go silent all over again you know that the hospital keept me for the time beeing.

I am gonna try to get some sleep now.

Love from a sad, tired and drugged Ravn.

Prince!!!

Guess who's coming to Oslo! And guess who's got three tickets :D
I am so exited I can barely wait! Juli 23. And we just got to be ok that night! I am going even if they have to carry me! This is a dream come through for me...Now I will just wait for Tom Waits to decide to come to Norway:)

here he is:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wZhKyVfb76c

Just when you think life is great...

....life kicks you're but. Again..

We have had some wonderfull weeks both Sander and me. In fackt we have had a normal life for sevral weeks! I have so enjoyed it, and I realy thought that sex-overdoseing had solved my problem, but allas...

This Mondays draining was back to normal. Painfull and hellish.
And on top of that Sander had an attack Tuesday.It was one of the hardest most scary attacks ever, and he is still in hospital totally worn out by it.

I am back on my feet now, but I am tired and maybe a bit depressed. Lasse is having a case of the blues too, missing Arn terrebly. It is understandable, and I can't comfort him. I can just be here and let him cry on my shoulder (or fuck me...haha)

Beautiful Arn...how we all miss him. It is so strange to think of that we will never ever see him again. Forever is a realy long time.

After a warm, sunny start of May, the rain has got it's grip on Oslo. Pouring down on my missery. The house feels cold even with a fire in the evenings. I have sleept holding Lasse thight both for warmt and comfort. He is still asleep, but I had to get up to take a painkiller.

We will go to see Sander this afternoon. Hopefully he will get out of hospital on Monday...but I think the doctors worry. Why did he get an attack again now? Why so hard??

Ill give u something cute to look at. Here's Sweedish Eric Sade!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nfx0OMM2u0A

Beautifull morning...

I was going in to drain this morning, but due to a minor carcrash the Doc that drains me could'nt be there. So here I am :D

I woke up alone and deserted in our bed this morning. It was early due to the hospitalapointment..Sander and Lasse were suposed to come with me. Lasse is borrowing Trines car at the moment and would be driving. I could'nt find them anywhere, but heard the shower running in the basement bathroom. There they were. It is a big showerstall with glassdoors down there. And they where both in the shower.
Water splashing over their naked bodys. Sander faced me. Eyes closed. With Lasse standing behind him. Suporting him with one hand around his waist, the other around his cock.
He was jacking it slowly while biting his neck and sliding his cock between Sanders buttocks. They looked so damned sexy! I sat quietly down on the tolietseat to watch.

Sander moaned. Eyes closed all the time while Lasse massaged his hard cock. His body shivering with pleasure from Lasses treatment. He was gonna come any second now. My own cock was almost painfully hard. I just had to tuch it.
So as my love shot his load down the showerdoors, and Lasse came with a muffled scream, I came all over the bathroomfloor and made a real mess in there. Both of them looked up just in time to se what happened. And I was realy embaressed.

I then entered the showerstall and we washed each other of before getting dressed and ready for hospital.

Lasse is staying. He is on sickleave for some time, but he wont move back up North. We will go up there together later on to help him pack and clean out his and Arns apartment. And for the time beeing he can stay in the basement in our old room for as long as he likes.

I fell like I have gotten an extra day this week. Wonder what I am gonna do with it?
The weather is summery and quite warm. So I guess working on my tan might be an idea.
I hope you all have a wonderful Monday out there.

Love Ravn

Greatings!

I am sorry. It has been far too long since I wrote in here. Is anybody still reading?

As Sander told you I had to go to hospital again due to another inflamation. This time they cured it relatively fast, and that gives hope that they finaly have found something that kicks the shitt!

I have been in bad shape since, and somewhat depressed. Feeling empty inside... there was nothing to write about.I have been bad company too. At least until Easter.
Then Lasse came down to stay... he is still here actually :)

He is taking the loss of Arn with great strenght.Of course he has his moments, but he is not one to let them brake him down. He says he can feel Arns love still, and feel that he is with him someway, and that Arn is fine, all well and beeing with his parents.That is so comforting to know.

The three of us has spendt the Easterweek out on the farm, and had a great time. Especially since our part of Norway decided that it is summer! We have had the most wonderful warm summer weather, and everything suddenly exploded into a frenzy of flowers and green leafes. We went straight to summer from the long, hard winter! Spring lasted for maybe a day or two! Sometimes this happen up here in the northern parts of the world.We are so blessed...

Having Lasse here also means having sex. Threesomes now, and lots of it! Sander says Lasse is the only person on earth that is more horny than me. But I think he is just suffering from lack of sex. He needs a new lover, but he is not ready for that yet.
So he can play with us until then, no sweat! I have had so much sex these Easter hollydays that even my draining on Monday did'nt bother me as much as usual!
There was realy nothing left to drain...

We are back home now, and working in our little garden to get it ready for summer.
Sander has got the hang of his weelchair outdoors now, and his back is much less painfull.
We have not given up on the thought of moving, but are now looking for a path to build on together with Trine and Simon. That way we can have the house we want.
But it is hard to find something near here. The propertys are very prizy.

I hope all of you had a fine Easter as well. Greatings from three suntanned Norwegians!


Love Ravn.

Short update.

Ravn has been in hospital again. He is ok now but still weak and tired.
He asked me to go in here and wish you all a happy easter.

Take care.

Sander.